Sometimes I can’t stand being optimistic about all this. It’s too tiring to believe that someone out there (not exactly) singularly meant for me) exists.
And I fear that I have let all my chances pass me by. Do I regret them? Some, yes. Others, definitely not.
Much as I want to be optimistic and if I may boldly say IDEALISTIC about all this, I still end up pushing people away.
If you don’t mind me asking, what is the reason for you pushing people away? Fear of getting hurt is always a common one I suppose.
at first it was because i didn’t want to get hurt. then eventually it evolved into not wanting to play the game anymore.